Breathe

Take a deep breath
so that both of chest aches,
until it begins to hurt a little

Breathe out more
until it feels like there's nothing
left inside of you

It's okay if you're out of breath
no one will blame you
it's okay to make mistakes once in a while
everyone does that
to say it's okay
even though it's only words of comfort

Someone's sigh
that heavy breath
how could I possibly understand

Your sigh
although I won't be able to understand that depth,
it's okay I will hold you

From others' eyes it might look like a sigh
that let people down
but I know that you spent a hard day
to let out even a small sigh

Don't think anything else now
take a deep breath
and breathe it out

Somewhere inside you

I was reading a novel and it mentioned one of the characters having multiple hearts and I love that concept in a spiritual sense. Like yeah, maybe it feels like you don't have room to love someone else but maybe there's space in a heart you never knew you had. Or maybe you meet someone and you grow a new heart just for them in some other place inside you.

Maybe love feels different there. Lighter, even.

2017 was so long ago now

There are a lot of things I want to reflect on properly about 2017 but it's been harder than I was expecting. I feels like 2017 was so long ago now. Or maybe it's that everything for the most part feels resolved. Everything that happened in 2017 is staying in 2017. Maybe there's nothing left to say and maybe that's okay too.


and yeah, although it's has been late for 14 days, happy new year! Let's hope this year is better than previous years. Thank you for dropping by.