Saturday, February 25, 2017

To live bravely

There comes a time in your life, when you walk away from all the drama and people who create it. You surround yourself with people who make you laugh. Forget the bad, and focus on the good. Love the people who treat you right. Life is too short to be anything but happy. Falling down is a part of life, getting back up is living. You just need to live your life bravely.

Monday, February 20, 2017

Terlupa minta

Ada benda yang aku terlalu ingin,
tapi masih belum dapat.

Dan aku lupa
untuk meminta
pada Dia.

Sunday, February 19, 2017

Bukan satu tapi seluruh

Terfikir tentang waktu-waktu yang telah aku lalu
Memberi memori bagaimana aku belajar mengenal itu dan ini,
serta tahu sana sini
Dan ternyata masih banyak harus aku belajar
tentang hidup sebagai manusia yang perlu menerima baik manusia lain,
tidak memandang dari mata,
tapi melihat dari setiap sudut dan sisi lain.

Umpama kau melihat sisi gelap wanita seksi bertattoo,
kaki botol dan gemar berjudi
tetapi setiap kali kucing/anjing jalanan kurap/berdarah
pasti dia merawatnya

Sudut manusia bukan satu pandangan sahaja,
maka lihatlah mereka pada sisi lain juga

Note for someone I used to called a friend

Been into conflict with someone I used to called a friend. Too bad that the conflict is just because that person misinterpreted my words that I have been posted on my  social media accounts. Too bad it has to be this way. Too bad that I started to develop unpleasant kind of feeling. Try my best not to be that way, but I came to realize that when someone you called friend insulted you, it's difficult not to develop that kind of feeling. Because I have this kind of expectation, "of course a friend will understand his friends.." I was wrong. Not all your friends would understand you, your pain, your sadness, your happiness, not all of them would understand.

To tell the truth, all of the words that I have been posted on my social media accounts are not just about me. They are about life. My life, others' life, things that happened around me. And some of them are the manifestations of on going search for comfort dealing with my struggles.

As Kamal Effendi said, different people, different way of dealing and whichever way a person decided to pick during the period of bereavement, it should be respected. Bear this in mind, not to mock a pain you haven't endured, you will never truly understand until it happens to you, and in this case, any fool can know, the point is to understand. Therefore, be kind or be quiet. 

I have to deal with many kinds of struggles. Writing is one of the way to deal with them. I like to write. I love words, so much. And every of them, have their own meanings. Only who share the same boat with me would understand. No need to literally interpret it. If you don't understand, you can ask, or you can just ignore. It's not your business to deal with.

I am writing this to that SPECIFIC PERSON. I do hope you read this as you used to "stalk" my social media accounts before. Please take note, I never write anything about you on my social media accounts: instagram, twitter and facebook except here.

As you are dealing with "pain", I never expected you to insult me in a such manner. I thought you would understand others' pain since you are dealing with it as well. But I was wrong. Totally wrong about you. You don't have to insult people just because you don't understand their pain and struggles. Those words that have you spite to me, won't make you any better.

You are too quick to judge people. Instead of judge, why don't you try this method, ASKING. Ask before you make any conclusion. Ask before you spite mean words.

Advice to a friend? You did that because you love me as a FRIEND? FRIEND don't insult their friends. Words can hurt people, I'm telling you in case you didn't know about that.


"Do you think we'd be friends if we weren't, like, stuck together in the same town? Like we were stuck together in Girl Scouts?...